Growing Deeper

It is January and like everyone else, presumably, I am contemplating last year and looking ahead at this coming year.

Where am I? Have I fallen back or have I made great strides in my life? Isn’t that, truly, the whole point of resolutions, to finding something to redeem or improve something in yourself?

I am not going to lie, I do not think I am, or feel like, the woman I was in 2014. I took a beating in 2015, there is no way to get around it or sugar coat it to move forward to 2016. I have no intention of staying stagnant so I have to look it straight in the eye.

Growing deeper.

Following God.
Seeking God first.

I think that will be the theme of my year. Not because I chose it but because that is what I see before me as the option.

What do I mean by this? I mean, fellowship is and is likely to remain slim, anemically so, pickings around here.

I have some thing(s) on my mind and I am hard pressed to figure out who to talk to. You know, in regular life, you have a spiritual buddy or two. You have someone you go to when you need to hash out an idea, get a second option, or assist with a problem. So when you are basically the lone protestant Christian and your friends are in 6 -9 hour time zone difference where does one turn?

Well duh, the Bible.

Sure, we know the answer is the Bible, don’t we? It is one of those christian phrases we throw out like, “I’ll pray for you” or “have a blessed day” but do we actually follow our own advice to, “look in the Bible?”

It is not always our first instinct, is it? Sometimes but not always. Sometimes we just want to curl up on the couch and Netflix binge or have coffee with a trusted friend or mentor. Yeah, you know it true.

It is not even wrong to look for a friend or mentor to talk to. It is Biblical (ex. Timothy, Titus) but it should never be our only source. We are not called to follow man but to follow God.

And yet, in 2015, I felt like I was so battered the best I could muster was a silent broken cry from my soul. I was definitely on Netflix binge mode.

I think we all could relate to this at some point in our life. This is what life is, valleys and peaks. To say none of us have felt so weighted down at some time or two or three in our life would be flat-out denial.

BUT GOD!

Isn’t He amazing! As heavy as I felt I always had hope. Why? Because He never leaves us there. He patiently waits for us to climb out with a hand extended. To say His grace is sufficient for me is an understatement! Just writing that sentence makes me tear up because the words are so powerful. How can one not serve such a God that grows us and waits for us to ride the storm?

I was not at my best and like any human my least favorite parts of me seep out. You know those parts we all strive to cover and hide from the general public. Those parts of us we strive so hard to bury but God knows all about regardless of our fruitless efforts. Yup. Not a banner year for me.

Ostrich. Lots of wanting to be an ostrich moments.

Redeeming grace.

Not even Job rode a storm and said, “I sailed through that perfectly. I never made mistake or sinned the whole time!” So, never beat yourself up about it, just get up, dust off, and move forward. Storms in life are meant to mold, shape, and purify even. So do not look at storms as tragic points in your life because beauty is going to come from it.

Onward and upward!

Feeling like I may be able to breathe again, I am looking forward. This is both terrifying and exciting to see what lies ahead in 2016. I will miss the direct and immediate (time zones) conversations with friends and spiritual buddies while I am here however I choose to see this as an opportunity to be free from distractions and focus on what matters: God my creator, Jesus my savior, and the Holy Spirit my counselor.

Time to refocus and get back in tune with why I was created with my creator. Time to grow deeper.

I would love to hear what you think this year has in store for you.

About Trisha Bruce

I am a wife, mother, speaker, and mentor with a passion for people. I would be honored to come along side you, wherever you are in life, and encourage you to walk closer to God.

10 thoughts on “Growing Deeper

  1. I relate to what you said about not being or feeling like the woman you were in 2014…..2015 had some tough lessons for me, huge losses in my life intertwined with huge blessings. 2015 was bittersweet. 2016 is still a mystery, don’t know what it will hold. All I know for sure is, I pray to grow deeper in my walk with God. Thank you for sharing with us. Love you!!

  2. I found my actions are too relaxed last year compared to what I was speaking! I need to put both into action this year. My first step will be to find that Church in Fishkill!!!! I pray you get what your looking for baby girl….love you lots

  3. I find myself in a similar place Trish. I have to say I breathed a sigh of relief when 2015 ended….what a sucky year. Thank you for being you and sharing from your soul. Tears and laughs, you inspired both with your words today. I find myself with a little more hope this morning. Love you girl!!!

    1. Well, that is what this is about, right? Being real because that is what encourages others. I hear you, I wouldn’t repeat 2015. Haha. There were some good times too and I met really good people along the way but boy daily life was complicated! You can be my up and onward, 2016 is going to rock buddy!

  4. My husband and I struggle with finding Godly people to fellowship with as well. It seems that many believers neglect fellowship with their brothers and sisters in the faith, too busy in their own worlds. We just try to stay open to new relationships despite the disappointments and extend grace to our current friends who let us down and neglect our friendship. So, yes, turning to God and his word needs to be the first thing we do for comfort. Praying always that he will direct us to the right relationships because we were made for community not isolation.

    1. Amen. I cherish the fellowship I have been fortunate to have all these years. It really is a blessing! I pray God brings you a couple to fellowship deeply with this year. You are strong to weather the friends with grace but life is much richer with people who reciprocate. Great to meet you, maybe we’ll chat again. 😉

I would love to hear from you.